As Mother's day has steadily been approaching I have found myself reflecting on me as a mother, my own mother, and all the women who have made a difference to me in my life. I have always wanted to be a mom. It has been the ultimate goal for me. I remember when I received my partriarichal blessing I was promised I would be a mother. That's all I could focus on. I was so excited to think that someday I would have my own children. And then I remember feeling a little bit of fear. Questions filled my mind of what kind of children I would have, would they be righteous? Would they be honest? Would they be good students? Will they be kind to others? Will they love me? Will they be friends or will they fight? All these questions and more went through my head. I can't say that I was afraid, but I was definately nervous. I knew I had a lot of learning and growing to do. I used to watch my mom, and would think, I want to be just like her. So I studied her, and watched her, listened to her (when it suited me of course) and paid attention to the little details. That's when I realized that I have the best mom in the world, and there is no way I can ever do all that she has done, although I will never stop trying! Years later when I became a mom and she became a grandma I remember thinking how blessed I was and am to have her as my mom. I can't remember her ever really yelling at me, or spanking me, or saying unkind words to me. She taught me with love and gentle words. I wish I could say that I am that kind of mom. But I still have some work to do. I am just grateful that I have someone like my mom to emmulate. Thank you mom for always being the example and for always teaching me. I always thought by this time in my life I would know everything, that I would have the answers to all the questions my kids asked and know just what to do in any situation. Sadly, I don't have all the answers and I don't know what to do in every situation. I just hope I handle those situations like my mom did, with a smile and a sigh, and always an "I love you" in there somewhere.
I am so thankful for Jayce and Alek. They bring so much joy to my heart and so much spunk to my life. They are the light and love of my life. I am grateful to be a mom, and that they chose me to be their mom. They are patient with me and love me even when I am not at my best. It scares me to think that someday they will leave me. I hope and pray that I will have taught them well and that they will know just how much I love them and will always be here for them. I hope they have a testimony and trust Heaveny Father to lead them. Most of all I hope and pray they find a wife as wonderful as my mom!
I would like to thank all the women in my life who have loved me and taught me. I would not be the same person without the influence you made in my life. I don't have enough room to name you all one by one. I just hope you know that I am grateful for you and for your love, patience, and example.
I need to thank my dad too. Because of him I have always known my divine nature, that I am a daughter of God. He called me princess, and treated my like a princess. I would not be the mom I am without his love and constant reminder that I am a daughter of God. I love you dad!
I hope you all have a wonderful mother's day. I pray that you will take just a moment to reflect on your own mom, or someone that has been a mom to you. Take a moment to ponder what a mother really is. And most of all give your little ones that allowed you to become a mother a love, and tell them thank you for letting you be their mom. Nothing in this world will ever compare. to being a mom!
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!
